Sumtimes i feel lyk i mean nothing to every1(excludin family memberz)... I dunnoe how to describe.. Im lyk a stranger...Or sum1 who ppl find when they r bored or sumthin...Juz when i felt tt i hav everything, i lost it all...
Secondary skool was the climax of my life up till now..All the frenz in my level, we onli had fun together...Sumtyms share bad times. Bad times r onli about galz n fight wif sum1 else.. Is it me? or i juz cant find sum1 i trust wif my probz.. All of u shd tink tt i hav no prob.. I guez no1 noe the real me..N i juz wont let any1 noe the real me... Y? Tts sumthing i dont noe oso... Maybe i was hurt too many times or maybe i just cant trust any1 enough..I wanna trust sum1..Juz when i tot i found him/her, he's/she's missing now..Every1 changed.. Its not lyk last tym..Maybe i cant adapt to changes...Maybe im slow..
Sum say tt being too gd is wrong...Y? Isnt it gd...Tts wad im tryin to do.. When i want to help sum1, he or she said tt its nt fair to me cz im always helpin dem n dey dun help me..Is tt wad we call frenz?? Frenz do not count whether sum1 help him or her b4...A fren will help in any way they can... Wads fairness tt they say? Nothing's fair in diz werld as ppl say..
Juz bcoz im nt in constant contact doesnt mean i dun care for my frenz animore.. And if sum1 better walk into ur life, does tt mean tt ur old fren become a stranger to u? Distance may b a gr8 obstacle for two frenz.. Does tt mean tt they shd forget each other..? Will we juz sit n wait for the other party to contact us? Wad if the other party thinks the same? Den both wont b in contact m i rite? Y muz diz happen ah? Maybe bcoz we r simply humans.. Will it harm us to juz make the first move? N wad if we alwayz make the first move? Wont ppl think tt we're desperate or sumthing? HaizZz... Diz is so complicated...Dun tink any1 of u out dere wud bother to read or undastand..Tts okay.. No1 undastand me anyway..Hmmz..K ah..Wish i can find the answers to all my qns...C ya...

bluewolv_blitz*Howled*Wednesday, May 11, 2005 ----------